Music for this episode: Arca ~ Vanity

I occasionally have trouble coping with what the world has become. It’s hard to go outside now. The sky is always dark. I honestly can’t tell you how long it’s been since I’ve seen the sun. I can’t judge off of the calendar anymore, since day and night have become inseparable. I haven’t had electricity either, for a long time now. And believe me, I’ve got more important uses for my batteries than slowly killing them in a clock. Besides, it would only make me feel more anxious about the passage of time.

The world ended awhile back. Or maybe it’s still ending. I don’t know which is more depressing to me. Oh, I still exist, there are still people, but the world as we once knew it is gone. For better or worse. Very few people were prepared for it, and the ones that were are too busy patting themselves on the back to help those that weren’t. I know that I wasn’t, but I guess that I was one of the lucky ones, if you want to look at it that way. I’m still undecided, personally. I often wonder if I’d be better off dead, or whatever passes for it. I’m still undecided on that too. In fact, I guess I’m undecided on a lot of things. For example, I’m running out of supplies. Fast. I wasn’t prepared for friggin’ Doomsday, so I can’t say I’m surprised at how quickly I’ve run out of food.

I’ve seen some roamers outside. I haven’t seen any people though. It’s easy to tell the difference. Roamers, they… they barely look human anymore. I don’t know what caused it, or why it happens, but roamers can’t be human anymore. It’s just unnatural. They run around on all fours, faster than anyone should be able to. Faster than is physically possible. But they do it. I don’t know what they subsist off of, but I know that they’re not above eating each other, which means they wouldn’t have any problems sinking their teeth into me. I’d rather avoid that. To be fair though, if I don’t sink my teeth into something soon, I won’t be around much longer anyway.

I haven’t seen any people around lately; it’s been a few days. I don’t know if they’re holed up in their homes, or somewhere else. Maybe there’s a whole bunch of ‘em out there, in a place that’s a lot safer than my crappy little apartment. If that’s the case, maybe it’d be in my best interests to find them. On the other hand, maybe I’d be better off on my own. It’s hard to say, but I feel like I’d be a little reassured to at least see someone else. I’ve been steeling myself to get ready to go outside. I really wish I had a gun, I’ve always thought it’d be a good idea to have one, living in the city like this. I’m sure regretting my lazy attitude towards that idea now. Then again, maybe I don’t have to actually go outside, maybe there are some people here in my own building. And even if there aren’t, maybe I can at least find some more supplies…

Either way, I don’t have much on me. I’ve got my flashlight and a claw hammer. I don’t have much in the ways of tools, I’m lucky I even have this thing. I’d better get moving though, if I don’t get out there soon, I’m not sure I ever will.

  1. Go Outside and search the city?
  2. Search the apartment building?
  3. Maybe there’s something I missed in my apartment…